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 i am a writer .which is why i ,like ,do this you know .like there are things that people are ,like ,scared to say or scared to see or ,like ,just ,like scared .like that's true ,right ?like if i weren't here to say ,like ,whatever ...who would say it ?you need to be brave to do this .to ,like ,put yourself out there and be vulnerable like this .it's ,like ,what is the word ?like ,brave i guess .like brave .yeah .i guess i've said that ,but it needs saying .again .i am brave .for this .i .am .brave .

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George Saunders Appreciation Post

you
youwill be tortured///enddlessly

you will know no hope, only

you r own relentlless existence.

you will not  realize that

you are the butt of jokes-- that

you rtrap is 

 ou r comic relief: stuck on a wall, stuck in a hole

you will never climb out of, that

you are

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An I really writing though? Like if I put this here, these words that are the result of fingers moving, which is the result of some electrical trigger that says "type 't-h-i-s-wo-r-d'?" Am I the source of this

On the Television the two men say

That's a guarantee

That's a guarantee

That's a guarantee

back and forth to each other ad nauseam as if they are trying to convince me that this was not in fact a clack resulting from some electric impulse sent from brain to finger to brain to mouth so that I would buy whatever it was they were trying to get me to buy. Did they not realize how insane it was that that some sort of shockwave-in-someone's-folded-and-crinkly-brain-tissue-sent-to-fingers sent to another's-equally insanely-folded-and-crinkly-brain-sent-to-mouth-and-face-and-movements would supersede whatever guarantee was previously promised. Like your deal was more interesting than the formation of language? As if!!!!!!

In other news, I'm not sure if I know where my keys are, oneday some internet nerd will find this blog, etc etc

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 the arm of the couch

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 my head down

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I

space

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I put my head on

 the arm of the couch

and then

I dream of

 carems kissing

of

cranky criminal caressing

Then

I

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I

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am

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space 

survivor update

all words are truth, even when typed at odd ours. even when the power went out on the holiday, leaving me a day behind, so tonight kicks and sazerac, spy shows and survivor: the sad kid won, his mother gone now, the cast cries as he says "i can see how this, from an outside"

i am not willing to contemplate my own sad victory, my family sobbing in the audience as i recount those final moments to jeff probst's smiling dimples, throwing to an outdated website on the bottom of the screen, timing his dialogue to hashtags. It approaches, of course, as as all sad ends do. but without the camera there to capture it, who knows if the impact will resonate with the masses? Who knows if, decades from now, some other nitwit will relive my pain from his couch, sipping a cocktail, pretending tonight was last night?

in other news, the 2023 blog streak stands at one, there is a lit city on top of my record player, and this room does not really actually need three carpets though.