This mountain of grated cheese

I sat here, slowing falling through the parmesano reggiano, like an olive lost in a history of grey tribute bands. At the top of the pile, the cheese felt soft and pillowy, like I was on top of the world and the world was soft, pillowy cheese. Does it matter that this cheese was aged?

   Like does aged cheese transmit the horrors of its times?


( will, 16 years from now ,  cheese transmit this message spray painted on the back of a high school entrance billboard:

"

Build the wall #MAGA

"

but 'Billboard' is not the right word. Maybe 'marquee'? 

Not the right word, but painted with 'right' words, am I right????

Maybe that painter kid ate Mussolini Cheese and was infected with the same strand of hate that has passed through the guts of those Germans and what not.)

Anyway, back to the story about cheese mountains:

The pillows of whiteness envelop me. Sharp and nutty. Tangy. Wielding patio torches.

For the record

In 2008, I posted the list of music to the right. In 2019, I stand by every single one of those songs.

Either they are good, or I have lost touch with that which is good.

Hey Jeanette Winterson, I can do that too

They say people who live in glass houses shouldn't throw stones. But maybe people who live in stone houses shouldn't throw glass. They should throw parties.

It's 1999 and there are beers on the wall. The stone walls not mended, the mended walls not stoned.

"Another brick?" she asked.

"Another beer," he said.

She opened the fridge and grabbed a bottle. An IPA from Stone brewing.

"Throw me a Stone and I'll give you a rock," he said.

"Zub Zub, are you askin' to marry me?" she said.

"Only if you got a heart of glass."

"Blondie didn't invent fate," she said.

He smiled.

"Gimme a glass for this Stone and let's party."

Don Henley. Top five, if not top three.

Saturday Morning

Middle aged men in tights mounting their
bikes in the morning adjusting their slick sunglasses their guts
protruding through lycra
manicured goatees in the morning we're riding the three bumps
fuck us fuck this middle
aged men in tights with gels to drink bells to ok ok that one
he got gravel leg
he got a
tear

It dark

It born

It mars

It wend

It mews

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